Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Ok. I'm jealous.

Sometimes I feel the need to confess...
I have this neighbour whom I only see accidentally coming back from the Taraweeh prayers. We never actually started any conversations. However, she got to know my sister. And that's how I knew she's my age.
God! My age! She is like 30 cms taller, and not only that...she looks much more...grown up! And she's engaged. And she goes to the Faculty of Engineering. Perfect.
I never actually saw her until, some minutes ago. Only that then I was much aware of the difference between me and her...as I stood beside her I couldn't help staring at her dreamy eyes that glimmer between blue and green...her pink face, and even her stylish abaya! Now...How can I POSSIBLY be looking beside her? Short. Ordinary. Humble. Unattractive. Pale. Rounded. She must have felt the green-eyed monster beside her because she avoided looking at me the whole way up. I stole a look at her finger...maybe she ended her engagement that's why she still lives here? (Evil, evil me) But no. Some excellent, exotic, perfect, religious, happy, happy engineer is possibly counting the days for their wedding day now!
Oh, Lord. The green-eyed monster!

7 comments:

Triple H said...

i don't see why ur jealous noha , ur very pretty urself & any man would be lucky to have you , beside from ur writings it seemed ur the one who is afraid of commitment

Anonymous said...

Dear Noha , you do not have to be jealous at all. Because you are aan smart, well educated and pretty lady, a pretty woman walking down an teh street hhhaaa. What beatuy mean actully? it is a relatief expression, who you finde beatuful other people find it ugly. So has everybody his or her own tast,Anyway dear best wishes cause of Aid Al Fiter. AHve a nice day

Sherif

Wild at Heart said...

Believe me, Hatem, she's prettier :)
And I don't think it's fear of commitment that's keeping me back, but rather fear of being commited to someone who's unworthy.

Wild at Heart said...

:) Thank you sherif but I think we all get jealous in one way or another even if we don't get envious. I know we shouldn't, because we all have our share of beauty.

Anonymous said...

your smile is realy beatful, hhaa i can see it. i am a gree with you, jealous is a humianbeing nature. Anyway have a nice Aid AL fiter kul sena wenti taibe, i am visiting Egypt in Dcemmber, i happy to be agian there

Have a nice day

Sherif

Forsoothsayer said...

i don't see how a 3ebaya can be stylish. in fact, presumably it SHOULDN'T be stylish.

Wild at Heart said...

:) Well some abayas are stylish, and the point is, every thing about her seems to be perfect!